the journey begins, part 1

How does one begin to explain all of the reasons that one begins a journey to total health? And how can one pinpoint when that journey actually begins?

To answer the first question, perhaps the most obvious reason that I can think of is that my physical energy levels have been lower than I would like them to be, on and off, for YEARS now. I’ve taken various supplements, tried various healing modalities, worked on my inner world, all with a fair amount of discipline and focus, with no huge and dramatic shift in my physical health. Although in some ways I am healthier (read: more conscious) than I’ve ever been, I still remain less energized than most of the people around me, more susceptible to extended, low-grade versions of the flu-of-the-season, and pretty sensitive to certain foods, alcohol, chemicals, etc.

It’s not that the various things I’ve tried haven’t helped in some way–many of them have–but they haven’t provided the miracle that I’m looking for, haven’t been the catalyst to springboard me into enough energy to see me leap out of bed early each morning, excited, energized, and ready to fully express myself and my gifts to the world.

In case any of you are wondering, I do know that some of the cause of these physical issues is buried in my psyche somewhere, and I’m always uncovering new layers of myself, but I know there is also an aspect of my less-than-perfect health that is simply physical and needs to be addressed through changes in what can be called my “physical language.”

We will get to more of what that last part means as we go along on this journey. And thanks for joining me, by the way.

In regards to the second question at the beginning of this post, I know it’s impossible to really pinpoint when my journey of healing began–birth? conception? 20 lifetimes ago? the big bang? However, there is a time frame I can target as an important turn in the road. Recently, I turned 38, and this was a traumatic powerful birthday for me. 2 years away from 40!!

I woke up around that time realizing that there was no turning back. I will never have the luxury of being 24 again, with all of those choices and possibilities ahead of me, and all the time in the world to allow them to unfold. More importantly, I also realized in a really deep way that there was, after all, no one coming to rescue me. No wise crone coming to magically wave a magic wand of health, no white knight on a horse coming to remove the burden of my student loan debt, no guru coming to “appoint” me and tell me that it is now, in fact, okay for me to fully express myself in the world and have the total health and wealth needed to do just that.

It was a revelation to realize that it truly is up to me. It was also a revelation to realize that I am worth more than I have been allowing myself to have or to imagine for myself, in physical health and in material abundance. I realized how tired I am of living paycheque to paycheque, basically in survival mode, and I recognized how much that way of living is a drain on my energy.

Around about that time, a friend of mine told me he was coming to town and hosting an introductory evening for a relatively new health company that he had gotten involved with called Conscious Planet. I tend to follow my instincts with these things and was instantly interested in the event. I went to the evening and was really impressed with and excited by the information presented by the founder of company, Charles Holmes. It was interesting, informative, and exciting to hear about his own healing journey and his wholistic, spiritual perspective on health. This appeared to be a company that wasn’t leaving anything out of the picture and was incorporating information about energy medicine and the consciousness of the planet that both resonated with my own beliefs and also appealed to my own tendency to think about the big picture. I knew I was onto something.

That evening after the presentation I spoke to Charles a bit and we did some interesting and unusual testing of the products to see how they fit with me, by literally asking my body about each of them to see if that was what it needed. If you’re not familiar with muscle testing, I like this youtube video which gives a pretty homegrown and simple explanation and demonstration of one way to do it. There are plenty of other videos by people in varying professions if you search for them.

I got a little overwhelmed by all the information at this point so decided not to buy any of the product on the spot but go home and think about it. What happens next on my journey with Conscious Planet so far will be in the next post…

Thanks for reading,

until next time,

Tamara